Dreams.

My Educational Life. 

Here is the thing. I look back on my life (the past few years) and I become upset when it comes to my education. So, right out of High School, I applied and got accepted to a very nice college. My plan was to major in Business. But for the past 2 years of High School, I was enrolled in a Medical Program. It put others and me on the fast track to careers in the Medical Field. Everyone said:

"You'll find a job."

"You'll have a stable career."

"You'll earn a well paying salary."

"Blah, blah."

And I did want to be a doctor. I really did. But things change. Life changes. So, I changed my mind about the Business College and kindly declined their very welcoming offer and enrolled in Pre-Med.

That was the biggest mistake of my life and trust me I made big mistakes in my life. 

So, here I was 2 years in..and I was miserable. I was getting A's and life was normal and on track. No reason, I shouldn't be happy right? Well, I wasn't and it was due to the fact that I knew this is not what I wanted. I just did not know how to get out of it because everyone in my family was so proud of me. Especially, for being enrolled in that exclusive medical program in High School. 

And one day, I just woke up and realized that I was going to do what I wanted and show everyone (including myself) that I can and will be successful without doing what was "safe" and familiar. I was going to take a risk.

I switched majors. I am currently getting my degree in Business at another college (not known for it's amazing Business Program, that school I just couldn't go back to - I guess it kind of hurt to much.) 

So, you ask, "M, why are venting about it now? You got what you wanted." It's true, I did. I just wished I knew what I wanted earlier. I would be done by now and God knows doing what. Then people tell me, "Everything happens for a reason." And HERE IT IS:

So, why did this happen? Why am I behind? Why am I not done now? Why? Why? So, I can be MORE stressed out now. What Earth Shattering Event would have happened if I had just went to Business School right away? Why would that cause the Universe to feel like it had a stick up it's ass? Why?!!!

There are things happening in my life and if I was only done by now, everything would fall into place. 

But now I worry day in and day out, how I will ever mange the certain (unrelated things) to fit into this new plan of mine that "happened for a reason."

To end this, I just want to say... My High School was very "Medical Filed" -ish. If you were not enrolled in a Medical Program..well you were just a "failure", and you were never going to be anyone or anything in this city. 

To anyone who reads this or cares, never let anyone tell you what you "should", major in. Just follow your dreams, may they be as "crazy" and "impossible" as mine. 

Love, M